huh...

So, I'm making myself sick to my stomach and really angry because I can't keep my mind from running wild.

I think I have the mean reds. I'm not going to blog about it because I promised not to talk about these things anymore. I was doing so good too, until I let it all get back to right where it was. It's never going to get better, I'm going to spend the rest of my life letting negative things into my life, that make me feel like I need them, when needing them makes me sick. I sound like I'm talking about drugs. haha.

But when you are in love, it's supposed to be simple and easy, it's not supposed to make you feel like this. Make you feel like you are in school and your scared because you didn't do the homework and your teacher is a bitch....as I said, I have the mean reds.

I'm going to go clean my room and take a shower to see if I can't make myself feel better.

Peace & Lola