"Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?” "That depends a good deal on where you want to get to," said the Cat. "I don't much care where..." said Alice. "Then it doesn't much matter which way you go," said the Cat. "...so long as I get somewhere," Alice added as an explanation. "Oh, you're sure to do that," said the Cat, "if only you walk long enough."
1/29/09
1/28/09
...
Rhyming:
Hum, sum, bum, rum, slum, dumb, succumb, numb. Upstairs I heard the hum of an intruder, my body went numb,and I couldn't move, I didn't want to completely succumb to the fear of the slum.
Rhetoric, Satiric, idiotic, click, flick, stick, kick. Your rhetoric is ridiculously idiotic. You should put it all on paper, it would be hilariously satiric.
Bitch, hitch, switch, witch, itch...You spiteful witch, I have an itch to make you sleep outside, like a bitch. hahahahaha. (not)
Hum, sum, bum, rum, slum, dumb, succumb, numb. Upstairs I heard the hum of an intruder, my body went numb,and I couldn't move, I didn't want to completely succumb to the fear of the slum.
Rhetoric, Satiric, idiotic, click, flick, stick, kick. Your rhetoric is ridiculously idiotic. You should put it all on paper, it would be hilariously satiric.
Bitch, hitch, switch, witch, itch...You spiteful witch, I have an itch to make you sleep outside, like a bitch. hahahahaha. (not)
1/27/09
Done!
And now, I just finished off Blackwood Farm by Anne Rice! Which is my 10th book of hers I've read, and I must admit, I have enjoyed every book of hers. She is insane...but it's fantastic!
Finishing it up I couldn't help but feel enthused in a way as if I had been spreading some great gossip...it was crazy! Anyways...great/insane/strange/addicting book, as all of hers are ;)

and now on to The Witching Hour, which is Anne's second book in the Mayfair Witches series.
Peace.
Finishing it up I couldn't help but feel enthused in a way as if I had been spreading some great gossip...it was crazy! Anyways...great/insane/strange/addicting book, as all of hers are ;)
and now on to The Witching Hour, which is Anne's second book in the Mayfair Witches series.
Peace.
1/25/09
Possibly the best passage in a book I've ever beheld.
From Anne Rice's Blackwood Farm:
Dialogue between Lestat(the infamous and also famous) and Quinn Blackwood.
"I'm in love with you," I responded.
He laughed with the most beguiling and gentle laugh.
"Ofcourse you are," he replied. "I understand perfectly because I'm in love with myself. The fact that I'm not transfixed in front of the nearest mirror takes a great deal of self-control."
"But your love for me," he went on, "is the reason why you'll tell me all about yourself and Blackwood Farm. Start with the family history and then go into your own."
I sighed. I pondered. I took the plunge.
(if that doesn't make you want to read the book, I don't know what does. Such wonderful vanity.)
Oh look...Lestat. haha.
Dialogue between Lestat(the infamous and also famous) and Quinn Blackwood.
"I'm in love with you," I responded.
He laughed with the most beguiling and gentle laugh.
"Ofcourse you are," he replied. "I understand perfectly because I'm in love with myself. The fact that I'm not transfixed in front of the nearest mirror takes a great deal of self-control."
"But your love for me," he went on, "is the reason why you'll tell me all about yourself and Blackwood Farm. Start with the family history and then go into your own."
I sighed. I pondered. I took the plunge.
(if that doesn't make you want to read the book, I don't know what does. Such wonderful vanity.)
Oh look...Lestat. haha.
1/24/09
Oh and...
So I could fill you in that I finished reading the entire Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice! There are...9 books total, I think. I am now onto Blackwood Farm which is the first book in her Mayfair series. And I am likin it so far. I <3 Anne Rice books!
I could also fill you in on the fact, that I am ditching out on a party tonight and being a big fat loser lazy ass at home. I'm just not in the mood to drive to Grover. Even though there will probably be cute boys. haha. IM SORRY ALI! I AM JUST TOOOO LAZY TO DRIVE, AND I'M TIRED!
...don't hate me :(
Also, I'm bored. Not bored at the moment, I mean bored in life. I need some excitement! I want to go somewhere, travel, change my life, something. I want to see new things, meet new people, learn from different cultures. I also need money. haha. And I also lack someone to travel with. My parents would never let me go alone. But, if I go crazy enough, soon I will freak and just take off. I can only handle so much crazy boredom! haha.
Alright, that's it...
Peace & Lola
I could also fill you in on the fact, that I am ditching out on a party tonight and being a big fat loser lazy ass at home. I'm just not in the mood to drive to Grover. Even though there will probably be cute boys. haha. IM SORRY ALI! I AM JUST TOOOO LAZY TO DRIVE, AND I'M TIRED!
...don't hate me :(
Also, I'm bored. Not bored at the moment, I mean bored in life. I need some excitement! I want to go somewhere, travel, change my life, something. I want to see new things, meet new people, learn from different cultures. I also need money. haha. And I also lack someone to travel with. My parents would never let me go alone. But, if I go crazy enough, soon I will freak and just take off. I can only handle so much crazy boredom! haha.
Alright, that's it...
Peace & Lola
SPIT IT!
JUST A LITTLE RHYMING.
Handsome, handsome boy,
I see you from afar,
How I wonder who you are.
I wish on a star,
On a star up so high,
For the courage to just say Hi.
But oh so pretty boy,
I will never know you,
From my seat, it's a lonely view.
And Another:
You think I need you?
You, whose love away it flew?
I think you must be confused.
I need only my own heart.
From you, I am fine apart.
And my life without you I will start.
You underestimate me.
For you I would have parted the sea,
But now, to me, your as small as a flea.
I am a smart woman,
you are a dumb man,
On my feet, that's where I stand.
HAHAHA.
Handsome, handsome boy,
I see you from afar,
How I wonder who you are.
I wish on a star,
On a star up so high,
For the courage to just say Hi.
But oh so pretty boy,
I will never know you,
From my seat, it's a lonely view.
And Another:
You think I need you?
You, whose love away it flew?
I think you must be confused.
I need only my own heart.
From you, I am fine apart.
And my life without you I will start.
You underestimate me.
For you I would have parted the sea,
But now, to me, your as small as a flea.
I am a smart woman,
you are a dumb man,
On my feet, that's where I stand.
HAHAHA.
1/23/09
Some dramatic lyrics.
A song:
How can I leave?
When you're silently calling me to you?
I don't have a prayer,
When you look into my soul the way you do.
The power you have,
When you hold me, it kept me alive, I just never knew.
I just took too long to see,
and now,
I have noone in this world to love.
I lost the one who was sent
from up above.
I'd give anything,
To glimpse for one second what we used to be.
But you've changed,
you've grown cold and lost all love for me.
I still miss you,
and forever, I'll hold onto every memory.
I'm sorry I took so long to see,
because now,
I have noone in this whole damn world to love,
I lost the one who was sent to me
from so high up above.
I just took too long to see,
and now,
I have noone in this world to love.
or to love me.
How can I leave?
When you're silently calling me to you?
I don't have a prayer,
When you look into my soul the way you do.
The power you have,
When you hold me, it kept me alive, I just never knew.
I just took too long to see,
and now,
I have noone in this world to love.
I lost the one who was sent
from up above.
I'd give anything,
To glimpse for one second what we used to be.
But you've changed,
you've grown cold and lost all love for me.
I still miss you,
and forever, I'll hold onto every memory.
I'm sorry I took so long to see,
because now,
I have noone in this whole damn world to love,
I lost the one who was sent to me
from so high up above.
I just took too long to see,
and now,
I have noone in this world to love.
or to love me.
1/22/09
Sorry.
I'm in a slow song mood. :)
And now for a poorly written poem of mine:
My life is sad,
My world lonely,
But someday,
I will grow the strength,
To stand on my feet independently,
I never needed anyone,
Just my own happy peace,
It will come soon,
If only I look up to the stars,
It will find it's way,
into my life with ease.
I won't be brought down by the past,
I will look up to the stars,
And my own peace,
will find it's way,
into my life with ease.
I love myself.
And now for a poorly written poem of mine:
My life is sad,
My world lonely,
But someday,
I will grow the strength,
To stand on my feet independently,
I never needed anyone,
Just my own happy peace,
It will come soon,
If only I look up to the stars,
It will find it's way,
into my life with ease.
I won't be brought down by the past,
I will look up to the stars,
And my own peace,
will find it's way,
into my life with ease.
I love myself.
1/20/09
ahhh, bittersweet.
I know, I know, I posted that video...I'm supposed to be all "anti-love" and stuff, but how can you really believe that when you see things as perfect as Disney Cartoon Movies?! haha.
I mean, Beauty and the Beast? Aladdin? Snow White? Best love stories of all time. I don't want love unless its like those movies. So...I'll probably be waiting for it for a long time (aka never).
I mean, Beauty and the Beast? Aladdin? Snow White? Best love stories of all time. I don't want love unless its like those movies. So...I'll probably be waiting for it for a long time (aka never).
1/19/09
The post
sad.
I am such a dork. I was watching Man in the Moon earlier, and I balled my eyes out. I know how it feels to lose a significant person in my life, but if I ever lost someone I loved as in, wanted to spend the rest of my life with, I would probably die. That movie is WAY to sad for its own good. Don't watch it if you're a softie, but if you adore impossible love stories, then, its your movie.
:(
Anyways, I am continuing my job search manana.
Ciao a tutti.
:(
Anyways, I am continuing my job search manana.
Ciao a tutti.
1/17/09
Oh
Saw Paul Blart Mall Cop today. It was funny as hell. Not as funny as Rob trying to play Scattergories, but very funny never-the-less.
And, Rob says that the air is so thin up here at this elevation that it can make your nose burn...is that true? Cuz my nose really does burn right now! Haha.
And, Rob says that the air is so thin up here at this elevation that it can make your nose burn...is that true? Cuz my nose really does burn right now! Haha.
Why?
Why waste tears for someone who isn't willing to give you theirs? Why waste your heart on someone who won't give you theirs? Why waste your every thought on someone who won't waste their own on you?
I won't waste myself for anyone, ever again.
I'm determined to never fall in love, ever again.
I'll only have past memories of loves sweetness, but I will forever taste loves bitterness.
Never again.
I won't waste myself for anyone, ever again.
I'm determined to never fall in love, ever again.
I'll only have past memories of loves sweetness, but I will forever taste loves bitterness.
Never again.
1/16/09
Im a poet!
You Should Be a Poet |
You have a way with words... and a talent for drawing the pure emotions out of experiences. Your poetry has the potential to make people laugh and cry at the same time. You just need to write it! |
Quiz
Your Love Element Is Wood |
In love, you tend to gently dominate and guide your partner. For you, love is all about sharing goals and future plans. You attract others with creativity and vision. Your flirting style is defined by your honesty and assertiveness. Growth and improvement are the cornerstones of your love life. You may focus on goals too much in relationships, but you never come out of them with a loss. You connect best with: Water Avoid: Metal You and another Wood element: will be doomed to a stormy relationship |
My day so far.
Hey Hey Hey!
So, I'm not in a great mood, I have been awake since, like, 8 this morning! haha. I know, I'm lazy.
It's really pretty outside today, and I can't enjoy it cuz I basically have to pack for my trip and I have to shovel dirt for my madre (if I wanna get paid atleast). AND I have to clean cuz the house is disgusting (which isn't much of a surprise when there are 7 people living in one house).
I lazied around this morning and watched part of Moulin Rouge, and that made me sad, and then watched some of America's Best Dance Crew, and that, didn't make me sad...
Then I ate pizza for breakfast(The breakfast of champions!).
I am really on my way to a healthy life, no? But anyways, I need to post, cuz...I actually have nothing interesting to say. My life is boring!!!
But if I find something interesting to say, then I will POST IT!
See ya later,
Peace & Lola
So, I'm not in a great mood, I have been awake since, like, 8 this morning! haha. I know, I'm lazy.
It's really pretty outside today, and I can't enjoy it cuz I basically have to pack for my trip and I have to shovel dirt for my madre (if I wanna get paid atleast). AND I have to clean cuz the house is disgusting (which isn't much of a surprise when there are 7 people living in one house).
I lazied around this morning and watched part of Moulin Rouge, and that made me sad, and then watched some of America's Best Dance Crew, and that, didn't make me sad...
Then I ate pizza for breakfast(The breakfast of champions!).
I am really on my way to a healthy life, no? But anyways, I need to post, cuz...I actually have nothing interesting to say. My life is boring!!!
But if I find something interesting to say, then I will POST IT!
See ya later,
Peace & Lola
1/15/09
mmmm.
I need a nice big bag of vicodin and a big stuffed animal to snuggle with and watch sobfest love stories. I think that's what I want.
Ofcourse, it's not what I'll get.
hehe.
Ofcourse, it's not what I'll get.
hehe.
huh...
So, I'm making myself sick to my stomach and really angry because I can't keep my mind from running wild.
I think I have the mean reds. I'm not going to blog about it because I promised not to talk about these things anymore. I was doing so good too, until I let it all get back to right where it was. It's never going to get better, I'm going to spend the rest of my life letting negative things into my life, that make me feel like I need them, when needing them makes me sick. I sound like I'm talking about drugs. haha.
But when you are in love, it's supposed to be simple and easy, it's not supposed to make you feel like this. Make you feel like you are in school and your scared because you didn't do the homework and your teacher is a bitch....as I said, I have the mean reds.
I'm going to go clean my room and take a shower to see if I can't make myself feel better.
Peace & Lola
I think I have the mean reds. I'm not going to blog about it because I promised not to talk about these things anymore. I was doing so good too, until I let it all get back to right where it was. It's never going to get better, I'm going to spend the rest of my life letting negative things into my life, that make me feel like I need them, when needing them makes me sick. I sound like I'm talking about drugs. haha.
But when you are in love, it's supposed to be simple and easy, it's not supposed to make you feel like this. Make you feel like you are in school and your scared because you didn't do the homework and your teacher is a bitch....as I said, I have the mean reds.
I'm going to go clean my room and take a shower to see if I can't make myself feel better.
Peace & Lola
1/13/09
1/12/09
Yuck
Eww, I just heard that Vanessa Hudgens is trying out for Leah Clearwater for the Twilight sequel New Moon. EWWW, and double Ewww! That would really piss me off.
She's gay, and she looks white, not native american. That is an insult to Native Americans everywhere.
:(~
She's gay, and she looks white, not native american. That is an insult to Native Americans everywhere.
:(~
Guy who wrote me a message on myspace.
I'm not your friend, so I can't write you back because of your privacy settings on myspace. Sorry.
Libra
Just thought I would post this on here, it's from someone's blog on myspace, and I thought "hmmm, SO TRUE!" haha, jk.
L • I • B • R • A • : The Freak in the Bed
Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! AMAZING IN BED..!!! Not the kind of person you wanna fuck with...u might end up crying... The most irresistible. Rare 2 find. Funny. Talkative. Erotic. Smart. Loves sports. Gets what he/she wants. Loves to be in a relationship.
L • I • B • R • A • : The Freak in the Bed
Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! AMAZING IN BED..!!! Not the kind of person you wanna fuck with...u might end up crying... The most irresistible. Rare 2 find. Funny. Talkative. Erotic. Smart. Loves sports. Gets what he/she wants. Loves to be in a relationship.
I need a job.
Hello!!!!
So, as I said earlier, I am starting my job search today, but I haven't seen ANYTHING yet!! WTF! So, this song below, is off the subject, but I thought, if this song was titled "Where have all the good jobs gone?" it would be perfect for my situation! hahaha. Love ya.
Peace & Lola
So, as I said earlier, I am starting my job search today, but I haven't seen ANYTHING yet!! WTF! So, this song below, is off the subject, but I thought, if this song was titled "Where have all the good jobs gone?" it would be perfect for my situation! hahaha. Love ya.
Peace & Lola
1/11/09
Tired
Loco
1/10/09
Updates
Yo! So I am not going to do any more whining on my blog...well, about boys anyways. I might whine a bit about money, or weather, and stuff like that, but you get my point.
I was out ALL day today, half of it by myself, and I enjoyed it. I went to San Luis, and went shopping, well, it was more like window shopping :(.
I think that I have alot of fun when I am by myself, don't get me wrong, I like shopping NO MATTER WHAT, but solo shopping is pretty...spiritual, haha. I was in a picky mood though, so I didn't get much.
One thing I did do was change my number! I have had that number for soooo long, that I just decided, it was time for a change. I'm starting over in the literal sense, so I figured, a new number was like a symbolic thing. Sorry people, I'm not posting it on here, haha. No hard feelings? ;)
I'm not too sure about the LA thing now, as my cousin might be moving to Murietta or some shithole town like that, and I might be able to stay with a friend, but I don't really like imposing. I'm thinking I am going to get a job around here, as me and my step-dad had a sort of falling out with the work thing (I don't let anyone disrespect me, ANYONE, muahaha) and I need a more consistent job anyways.
I know this isn't that interesting of a post, but I just want everyone to know my status as of now. And out of respect of people, I will not be posting anything about my (more)personal life, as in boys. I have class, and I am sorry for any disrespect I gave to anyone. In the heat of the moment, I can be real mean, but I calm down quite fast.
So, I am going out tonight with my friend, not sure where, but I look pretty darn cute, If I do say so myself, and I am ready to party! Woohoo!
Peace & Lola
I was out ALL day today, half of it by myself, and I enjoyed it. I went to San Luis, and went shopping, well, it was more like window shopping :(.
I think that I have alot of fun when I am by myself, don't get me wrong, I like shopping NO MATTER WHAT, but solo shopping is pretty...spiritual, haha. I was in a picky mood though, so I didn't get much.
One thing I did do was change my number! I have had that number for soooo long, that I just decided, it was time for a change. I'm starting over in the literal sense, so I figured, a new number was like a symbolic thing. Sorry people, I'm not posting it on here, haha. No hard feelings? ;)
I'm not too sure about the LA thing now, as my cousin might be moving to Murietta or some shithole town like that, and I might be able to stay with a friend, but I don't really like imposing. I'm thinking I am going to get a job around here, as me and my step-dad had a sort of falling out with the work thing (I don't let anyone disrespect me, ANYONE, muahaha) and I need a more consistent job anyways.
I know this isn't that interesting of a post, but I just want everyone to know my status as of now. And out of respect of people, I will not be posting anything about my (more)personal life, as in boys. I have class, and I am sorry for any disrespect I gave to anyone. In the heat of the moment, I can be real mean, but I calm down quite fast.
So, I am going out tonight with my friend, not sure where, but I look pretty darn cute, If I do say so myself, and I am ready to party! Woohoo!
Peace & Lola
1/8/09
That's that. On to newer and better things.
If the world ends tomorrow, are you going to die alone? Did you just want "more time" and then come to find out, there really never was time? There's only living...
Time is not our friends, and I know that I won't ever ask for more time. I will love NOW, and live every moment, and be who I am meant to be every second of every day, starting now. Because I don't know if it's going to be taken away tomorrow. So, at the end of my life, I will know I used all the time I was given until it was run out, and it wasn't wasted. I may spend nights crying, but they weren't wasted, they were only setting me up for better times. That's how I see it. I won't wait for anything, because NOTHING is worth waiting for. Even love, if it doesn't want me now, then it can't have me ever. So I'm leaving all my past happiness behind, and finding new, better happiness.
I really am the girl with the "fuck you attitude" and her middle finger waving "peace" in the rear view. So, to whoever you are, try to remember everything that happened between us, because you aren't ever getting it back.
Peace & Lola
Time is not our friends, and I know that I won't ever ask for more time. I will love NOW, and live every moment, and be who I am meant to be every second of every day, starting now. Because I don't know if it's going to be taken away tomorrow. So, at the end of my life, I will know I used all the time I was given until it was run out, and it wasn't wasted. I may spend nights crying, but they weren't wasted, they were only setting me up for better times. That's how I see it. I won't wait for anything, because NOTHING is worth waiting for. Even love, if it doesn't want me now, then it can't have me ever. So I'm leaving all my past happiness behind, and finding new, better happiness.
I really am the girl with the "fuck you attitude" and her middle finger waving "peace" in the rear view. So, to whoever you are, try to remember everything that happened between us, because you aren't ever getting it back.
Peace & Lola
1/7/09
Friends
And onto another subject, I don't consider myself to have any friends. Really, I feel like, when people have needed me, I was there for them. I have stayed on the phone for hours while people cried, I have bitten my tongue while they insulted me by telling me things I completely disagree with, even though I had the decency to keep my mouth shut, I have comforted people when I was the lowest in MY life, I have always tried to give good advice to others even though I knew they wouldn't take it.
And yet, when I go through hard times, they never stood by me to make me stronger and make me feel like I had someone rooting for me to get through it. Even if they didn't understand what I was going through, they never even took the time to call me to see how I was, to even listen.
But you know what? Without them, it only makes you stronger when you come out of it all.
So, to end this little ramble, I give you my favorite quote that I have previously posted:
"'Tis better to be silent and thought a fool, then to open your mouth, and remove all doubt" - Abraham Lincoln
I post that because many things people say depicts how much respect they are given, and I have lost alot of respect for people because of their voiced opinions.
And yet, when I go through hard times, they never stood by me to make me stronger and make me feel like I had someone rooting for me to get through it. Even if they didn't understand what I was going through, they never even took the time to call me to see how I was, to even listen.
But you know what? Without them, it only makes you stronger when you come out of it all.
So, to end this little ramble, I give you my favorite quote that I have previously posted:
"'Tis better to be silent and thought a fool, then to open your mouth, and remove all doubt" - Abraham Lincoln
I post that because many things people say depicts how much respect they are given, and I have lost alot of respect for people because of their voiced opinions.
Not sleeping.
Situation is simple.
I fucked up, I hurt someone I swore to love forever. I pushed them away, and I realized what I had done and asked for another chance. Problem is, that person is into someone else, and although they consider giving me another chance, they still want to see where that other relationship goes too. We were together for a long time, and it's too hard to know that they want to continue with that other relationship as well. I though what we had was unique, but I guess there wasn't much special about me after all, because they like that other person just as much or more.(at least that's my take) And while he has her on his brain, he will be the only one on mine, get the irony?
So the end of it is, even though I can promise to try 100% next time, and I can promise to wait as long as they need, I can't wait while they pursue someone else. I have pride. I may even have a large ego (not sure), so it's not going to work.
Even if they stopped pursuing that person, I will always know that they will think "what if" about them, and in the end, I can't live with that. I really wanted to try again...I'm sorry. I can't meet you either. It will just make it worse.
I fucked up, I hurt someone I swore to love forever. I pushed them away, and I realized what I had done and asked for another chance. Problem is, that person is into someone else, and although they consider giving me another chance, they still want to see where that other relationship goes too. We were together for a long time, and it's too hard to know that they want to continue with that other relationship as well. I though what we had was unique, but I guess there wasn't much special about me after all, because they like that other person just as much or more.(at least that's my take) And while he has her on his brain, he will be the only one on mine, get the irony?
So the end of it is, even though I can promise to try 100% next time, and I can promise to wait as long as they need, I can't wait while they pursue someone else. I have pride. I may even have a large ego (not sure), so it's not going to work.
Even if they stopped pursuing that person, I will always know that they will think "what if" about them, and in the end, I can't live with that. I really wanted to try again...I'm sorry. I can't meet you either. It will just make it worse.
1/6/09
1/5/09
Pics
1/2/09
Hey there.
I'm feeling alot better! I probably got rid of a few gallons of flem and boogers today...hehe.
But its all good now. :)
I realized my stupid phone is scratched on the back from some sand that got into the case. I am soooo pissed because that's an expensive ass phone.
Whatever, I won't let it bug me...
I have nothing going on right now, so I'll let it stay at that.
I know I got awefully personal the last couple of days with my posts, I hope noone takes it personally, I am alot better at writing than talking, so I had to get it all out.
so...I'll write later, it's boring right now.
Pace e Amore,
Lola
A Good Memory
But its all good now. :)
I realized my stupid phone is scratched on the back from some sand that got into the case. I am soooo pissed because that's an expensive ass phone.
Whatever, I won't let it bug me...
I have nothing going on right now, so I'll let it stay at that.
I know I got awefully personal the last couple of days with my posts, I hope noone takes it personally, I am alot better at writing than talking, so I had to get it all out.
so...I'll write later, it's boring right now.
Pace e Amore,
Lola
A Good Memory
1/1/09
Sono Qui
Mi chiamo Lola. Sono di California. Sono ventidue anni. Sono giuridica, e pronto a parte!!!
Pace e Amore!
Lola
Pace e Amore!
Lola
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