6/16/10

I'm sorry...

I am fully aware that almost all of my poems are morbid...

What can ya do :/

Not sure if I ever posted this, but...

I added a bit to it....

Lying Eyes

Someday I'll have courage,
to live how I please,
but now I'm too afraid,
to stand on my own two feet.

One day I'll be strong enough,
to stare into your eyes,
Until then I'll look away,
and consent to your lies.

Living this way doesn't make me happy,
but it's better than pain,
feeling dull keeps me safe,
with nothing to lose or gain.
I can't read you,
your eyes hold mysteries I can't unravel,
your mind is closed,
and impossible to travel.

You pulled me to you,
you seemed so exciting,
one of a kind...unique,
everything you said,
was a perfectly planned technique.

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I was falling for you,
but I got scared,
when I realized my error,
you were no longer there.

I deserve to suffer heartache,
but it doesn't make it easy,
because I know what I'm missing now,
and I can't take back my mistake.

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How can you say you care
and then change your mind?
Why is it the good girls get burned?
It's completely unfair.

How can you hurt me so much
and yet make me still want you?
Why do I still dream of you?
I feel I need your touch.

How can I have feelings for you,
when you don't waste a thought for me?
Why do I want you so desperately?
When our times together were so few?

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Your beauty silences my mind,
your smile stops my heart,
but there's so much more to you,
so much I can't define.

I'll never be anything to you,
I'll forever admire you in quiet,
you will always stay ignorant,
of my dreams, you'll never have a clue.

Happiness is not an emotion you see,
Anger has locked into your heart,
if you came and stayed awhile,
I would show you what happiness can be.

We always want what we can't get,
you are no exception for me,
so I'll close my eyes to sleep tonight,
and dream a dream I won't soon forget.

6/7/10

Theres gotta be more to life...

Than being really really ridiculously good looking.

I did what I always say is too hard for me to do. I opened myself up...unfortunately, it went badly. Is there something seriously wrong with me?