Musica

I never loved nobody fully, always one foot on the ground, and by protecting my heart truly, I got lost in the sounds, I hear in my mind all of these voices, I hear in my mind all of these words, I hear in my mind all of this music and it breaks my heart, and it breaks my heart. - Regina Spektor - Fidelity

So I am sitting at home, trying to figure out how I'm going to come up with money to pay my past due bills...it's too suffocating to think about money. I hate money.

I would like to have a moment of clarity and possibly luck as well, because it would be LUCKY to find a job and to figure out what the hell I should be doing right now!!! I'm soooo confused!

I am afraid of disappointment again. When you want to move forward, you fall back scared that it's going to happen again and I don't want to fail twice in a row. What am I talking about? haha. What else? Boys...I'm a girl, so that's always on my mind right? I'm so shallow. Anyways, I never used to question myself with them, now I feel like no one likes me at all. I feel like such a loser!!!

Well, I've basically downloaded alot of music over the last day, and now I'm listening to it. haha. Here's some of my new music:

The Runaways
The Perishers
Regina Spektor
Dido
Jeff Buckley
The Cranberries
Janis Joplin
Jimi Hendrix
Enya
Foo Fighters
Linkin Park
James Blunt
Joan Jett & The Blackhearts
Lucinda Williams
Muse
Norah Jones
Pat Benatar
Robin Thicke
The Ting Tings
& Wilco

Pretty big list, no?

I downloaded almost ALL of Jeff Buckley's music. Definitely a talented artist.

Hmmm, I don't know what else to say, except that I am really bored, and I need to be saved from this boredom. My brain is going to melt from boredom!!!

Pace,
Lola