Money

I'm so tired of being broke.

Why can't there be such thing as money trees...

Well Hello.

I'm not so sure if I am going to LA this weekend now, I haven't heard anything from Mr. Bobby lately, and I don't plan on sleepin on the street, so...ya know.

I hope I get my tax return soon, I need money...

Something strange is happening in our house right now...it's...QUIET.

I'll be back in a bit, I have something to do...

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I'm sorry again for never updating this anymore. The last few days have been pretty tragic, and I don't really feel like commenting on it. All I know, is that we all take everyone for granted, and it makes me sad when people wrong others. I know that there is nothing in the world I wouldn't give to have my sister and my dad back, I would give up my life for them to be able to live a long, full life, but it doesn't work that way. I know that when you go through hard things in life, its your choice which road you take to get you in the right direction again. No matter which direction, you are going to come out to be a much stronger person. And the most important thing, is to never let the memories you had with those people fade, even though time greedily tries to steal the few you keep with you.

Austin was taken from this life much to early, and I have so few memories to keep with me, so I will store them in my heart and lock away the key.

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Also, my music I put on here, dont think of it as depressing, think of it as music to enlighten the mind, some of its to get you thinking, some to get you excited, or calm, you choose how it affects you, not I.

Pace

Sorry

I haven't updated in a week? Oops, my bad! Alright, update....

I watched the Changeling last night...OMFG! That movie was frickin crazy! It was soooo sad, yet sick/twisted/tragic at the same damn time! You have no idea, I was trippin out on it. Also, I watched Practical Magic this morning, and I love that movie, it's just great, enough said.

I went out Sat. night to Slo, we ended up at DTB for...ever. It was fun, I mean, I wasn't dressed up cuz I hadn't been much in the mood to go out, so I coulda looked better, and we stayed until it closed, and that wasn't exactly my choice, but other than that, it was fun.

I'm not sure what I have planned this weekend, but next week I might be going to LA. I hope that happens, cuz I haven't been to LA in too long, I miss it sooo much.

Anyways, other than that, I am pretty much broke, I need to get my hair done really badly, and yet again, I can't afford it, so hopefully I'll get it done soon.

Oh, and the night we went out (Sat) I got my makeup done at Urban Decay in the Santa Maria mall and it looked fucking awesome!

Pace e Lola

No kidding.

I have kicked my own butt today. I have bitten my cheek twice really bad, so I have two sores on opposite sides of my mouth and I burnt my entire mouth today on french fries! Guess Stephanies not getting any tongue on Valentines Day! :(

haha. Like I would have anyways...

So I'm done with the working evenings, but I have to work on Valentines and this Sunday as well.............GAYNESS.

Ciao a tutti

Pace e Lola

My pic for Loren Blake:

Sooooo beautiful!

The day is bitter and cold, my frozen joints make me feel old.

So, yay, I changed my background, it's a little more interesting now! haha. I'm not really up to anything, really.

I'm working in a little bit for a few hours...

Maybe I'll read some more, I'm about 1/3 of the way through The Witching Hour! It's getting more interesting too, so I spoke too soon about it when I said it's sort of boring, but my only problem with Anne Rice is that she extends things for way toooo long of periods. Like a letter in the book would be 50 pages! It's slightly ridiculous...but I still love her books.

So I'm off...to read and eat.

Pace e Amore!

Lola

Hi

I'm sorry I haven't been keeping up to date. I am not really in the mood to write right now, I'm too lazy, I'm actually forcing myself right now to do this. But I felt guilty if anyone has been checking in to see if I've updated, so, you people...this is for you. :)

I have been working, which is good, since I haven't had any money lately, and I've been screwed with my car insurance...speaking of, I will tell you a good story!

I was in a really small car accident last year, so small in fact, that there was absolutely NO damage to my car. I guess that my car might have scratched the other guys car, and it was my fault cuz I rear ended him. So I was aware that it would be something like $400 in damages to get him a new bumper or get it painted, whatever. That was the impression I have for almost a full year, until just this last month, I have to reinstate my insurance, and they are now charging me $260 a month for car insurance! I asked why, and they said because of my accident. So I called them back after calming down and looking through old paperwork, and asked them why it would go up so much for such a small ding on someones car, and they said that the guy I hit was claiming bodily damage and he was paid $2400 in medical damages!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How is that fucking possible you ask? Because he was a first rate fucker, who lied his way and screwed a 20 year old girl for life!!!!!! So NOW I have to sell my car, pay it off, and get a old used car so I don't have a car payment and my insurance will go way down (hopefully) because I can't even afford to live! That fucking jerk is probably living large too, he got a free $2400 and probably spent it on herpes infested prostitutes. I hope he......

I'm stopping myself there, because what I'm wanting to say is not lady like, and I slipped up already enough. Anyways, I'm pissed, I have to get rid of my car! :( I love my car!

So, that's that. I'll update more often, atleast, I'll try. haha.

Pace e Amore

GOD!

Are there ANY cute boys on the Central Coast? I'm starting to doubt it...

So.

I might have spoke too soon about all Anne Rice books...I have loved every book of hers so far (i've read 10) but The Witching Hour is starting off really slow and it's taking me for EVER! grr.

Anyways, I'm going out.

Peace & Lola

OHMUHFUCKINGOD!

OMG! OMG! OMG!